It's the weekend! yay! Well, had school the last two days.
Thursday was actually kind of fun and I always dread thursdays. We did a fake trail for Louis XVI in class. I was De Seze (King's attorney). That was fun. I apparently did really good. Nobody could say anything after I said something wrong about their accusation towards Louis (My friend Steve) ^_^
Had a suprise indoor game. Reopened the 'burns' on my right knee from when I fell Monday.
Today was kinda eh. Day went by slow. Kinda a resting day for me. Relaxing.
Hoping there is something to do tomorrow. But Bry is working all day tomorrow so unless Jes goes to hang with her bf and his friends and I can go to, I dout I'll be getting out of the house.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday/Wednesday
OMG 2 SNOW DAYS IN A ROW!!!!
It's rare enough we even get 1! To bad I was stuck at home yesterday cause it hurt to walk. Stupid fake too so.grass. Now today Bry is working from 2 to 5, Jes is with her bf i think (haven't heard from her), Lynn is still on lockdown (BOO), and Andy... who knows what Andy is doing...
Yesterday = EXTREME boredom
Mostly cause I couldn't walk D: but I can walk today! YAY! ^_^
Today, well. Seems to be going about as well as yesterday. Wish somebody would call but I dout it. *sighs* AND I think there is no youth tonight D:
Now I'm kinda looking forward to school tomorrow.
Well, it's still only 3. Maybe somebody will call. *hopes*
It's rare enough we even get 1! To bad I was stuck at home yesterday cause it hurt to walk. Stupid fake too so.grass. Now today Bry is working from 2 to 5, Jes is with her bf i think (haven't heard from her), Lynn is still on lockdown (BOO), and Andy... who knows what Andy is doing...
Yesterday = EXTREME boredom
Mostly cause I couldn't walk D: but I can walk today! YAY! ^_^
Today, well. Seems to be going about as well as yesterday. Wish somebody would call but I dout it. *sighs* AND I think there is no youth tonight D:
Now I'm kinda looking forward to school tomorrow.
Well, it's still only 3. Maybe somebody will call. *hopes*
Monday, January 26, 2009
Sunday/Monday
Starting with Sunday... I saw Lynn during morning and evening service. It was nice seeing her and hanging out with her for a bit.
Youth pastor says I get to teach Wednesday Study in 3 weeks D: I gotta find something to teach! Maybe something on Foul Language, or just plainly put, Putting Faith in God? idk... Any ideas? I would love some! I wanna be prepared at least a week in advanced D:
Andy had an emotional breakdown... He told me I kept him from breaking down during morning service (he sat next to me). He ended up asking me to go to evening service for support. Which I did... idk how much 'support' I was though. *shrugs* We went home that night and I got on messanger and he said he gf didn't seem to wanna talk to him which upset him big time... in turn upset me big time.... why am I so attached to him? What does God got planned for him in my life? There must play some important role in my life, because i don't think we would have gotten to this point in our friendship esp. after what happened...
Well. Today was Monday.
Andy and Jes was supposed to come to my indoor soccer game today. Andy didn't... but maybe that was because his gf was finally talking to him again and was happy to be around him again (found out through text)... still it kinda hurt. I know him and his gf seem to be getting along but he had still made plans to come to my game. Couldn't he have come to my game? He sees his gf everyday... w/e he chose not to come... I hope he had fun with her.
Jes came though :) it was nice to see her. AND her bf was there (cause he is on my team (coed teams)) and she almost ignored him the whole time to hang out with me. Sounds bad yeah but she is ALWAYS with that boy!!!
My game went good though! I haven't played that well in a long time!! We won 10 to 6 and I made almost half the assists. I almost made 3 goals too, but 1 I 'choked', 1 I missed an OPEN goal *head bonks*, and one the goalie got *shrugs*. The only bad part is that now my knees are all banged up. I slid accross the fake grass because of course clumsy me has to fall once every game lol
New guy at school too!! Well... not new to most of the soccer players but new to me! I thought I knew everybody who played soccer. I thought I knew everybody in my grade level, but I guess not. He is kinda cute. He looks at me in the corner of his eyes when he doesn't think I'm looking, and I don't think he notices that I know he is. Hehe. Maybe we'll get the chance to talk sometime. He seems kinda funny. It might be nice meeting somebody from my school that I won't already have an idea on how they act. Hmm... one can only hope right?
Youth pastor says I get to teach Wednesday Study in 3 weeks D: I gotta find something to teach! Maybe something on Foul Language, or just plainly put, Putting Faith in God? idk... Any ideas? I would love some! I wanna be prepared at least a week in advanced D:
Andy had an emotional breakdown... He told me I kept him from breaking down during morning service (he sat next to me). He ended up asking me to go to evening service for support. Which I did... idk how much 'support' I was though. *shrugs* We went home that night and I got on messanger and he said he gf didn't seem to wanna talk to him which upset him big time... in turn upset me big time.... why am I so attached to him? What does God got planned for him in my life? There must play some important role in my life, because i don't think we would have gotten to this point in our friendship esp. after what happened...
Well. Today was Monday.
Andy and Jes was supposed to come to my indoor soccer game today. Andy didn't... but maybe that was because his gf was finally talking to him again and was happy to be around him again (found out through text)... still it kinda hurt. I know him and his gf seem to be getting along but he had still made plans to come to my game. Couldn't he have come to my game? He sees his gf everyday... w/e he chose not to come... I hope he had fun with her.
Jes came though :) it was nice to see her. AND her bf was there (cause he is on my team (coed teams)) and she almost ignored him the whole time to hang out with me. Sounds bad yeah but she is ALWAYS with that boy!!!
My game went good though! I haven't played that well in a long time!! We won 10 to 6 and I made almost half the assists. I almost made 3 goals too, but 1 I 'choked', 1 I missed an OPEN goal *head bonks*, and one the goalie got *shrugs*. The only bad part is that now my knees are all banged up. I slid accross the fake grass because of course clumsy me has to fall once every game lol
New guy at school too!! Well... not new to most of the soccer players but new to me! I thought I knew everybody who played soccer. I thought I knew everybody in my grade level, but I guess not. He is kinda cute. He looks at me in the corner of his eyes when he doesn't think I'm looking, and I don't think he notices that I know he is. Hehe. Maybe we'll get the chance to talk sometime. He seems kinda funny. It might be nice meeting somebody from my school that I won't already have an idea on how they act. Hmm... one can only hope right?
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Life...
So here I stand, watching all my friends lives fall apart. My own problems don't even seem important to me anymore. Yeah sure, my family is a wreck, at least my mom's side of the family is. But it doesn't even seem important right now.
Lynn, poor little Lynn. My 'lil sis'. Her and her aunt aren't gettin along, at all. They fight all the time and she came to school crying. I thought things were finally getting better. Guess again I guess...
Andy... I can't believe me and him got our friendship back. After what happened between me and him and everybody tellin me to just walk away from him. But now, his gf is hitting him hard it seems. She might be breaking up with him. He is suck a mess. He started crying the other night when we were hanging out. Out of all our friends, I was the only one who knew what was wrong. He told 1 other person what was wrong after I left that night, but still, seeing him cry hurt me. I can't believe she is doing this to him. Does she not realize what she has right in front of her? How lucky she is to have a guy like him? I don't even know how I feel about this whole thing. Earlier, I wanted her to break up with him. What comes around goes around. I wanted him to know what I went through when he hurt me. But as I sat there talking to him, trying to talk to him. Trying to help him in some way, my whole body ached and I felt like I was melting away from guilt. I don't want to see him in the pain he is in. I don't want her to break up with him, I want him to be happy. Thats all I want. I want to see the smile on his face again, the one that makes my heart shutter, even if his smile isn't for me.
Yeah sure, other friends have their own problems, but these two are affecting me the most.
Gaia doesn't even seem important anymore sadly, maybe thats why I only get on once a week anymore. I miss talkin to DJ, Stormy, Lizzy, and a few others, but the problems with my family, and my two friends just sucks up most of my time and energy and whatever I have left goes toward homework. Life is just a big bunch of stress, I wish things would get easier, but I don't think they will...
(( Note: Names are not real names. Just to help me so I don't say he she all the time. Yeah, these are my problems... idc anymore if people I know ever lay eyes on this or not... i just can't hold everything in anymore ))
Lynn, poor little Lynn. My 'lil sis'. Her and her aunt aren't gettin along, at all. They fight all the time and she came to school crying. I thought things were finally getting better. Guess again I guess...
Andy... I can't believe me and him got our friendship back. After what happened between me and him and everybody tellin me to just walk away from him. But now, his gf is hitting him hard it seems. She might be breaking up with him. He is suck a mess. He started crying the other night when we were hanging out. Out of all our friends, I was the only one who knew what was wrong. He told 1 other person what was wrong after I left that night, but still, seeing him cry hurt me. I can't believe she is doing this to him. Does she not realize what she has right in front of her? How lucky she is to have a guy like him? I don't even know how I feel about this whole thing. Earlier, I wanted her to break up with him. What comes around goes around. I wanted him to know what I went through when he hurt me. But as I sat there talking to him, trying to talk to him. Trying to help him in some way, my whole body ached and I felt like I was melting away from guilt. I don't want to see him in the pain he is in. I don't want her to break up with him, I want him to be happy. Thats all I want. I want to see the smile on his face again, the one that makes my heart shutter, even if his smile isn't for me.
Yeah sure, other friends have their own problems, but these two are affecting me the most.
Gaia doesn't even seem important anymore sadly, maybe thats why I only get on once a week anymore. I miss talkin to DJ, Stormy, Lizzy, and a few others, but the problems with my family, and my two friends just sucks up most of my time and energy and whatever I have left goes toward homework. Life is just a big bunch of stress, I wish things would get easier, but I don't think they will...
(( Note: Names are not real names. Just to help me so I don't say he she all the time. Yeah, these are my problems... idc anymore if people I know ever lay eyes on this or not... i just can't hold everything in anymore ))
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